Vindication

You know how for all those years I really believed that I had a magical ability to inspire others to be their worst? How I thought that somehow I was especially deserving of mistreatment, and bad behaviour. That I had a little sign on my back that read "kick me"?

Well I have finally figured it out for once and for all that it wasn't me at all. It never was.

It was YOU.

The events that led me to start this blog and that became my first blog post have repeated themselves. This time I am viewing the chaos from the sidelines instead of on the field. From this vantage point I can clearly see that there was nothing about me that was a catalyst for the abuse I suffered. It is nothing short of a revelation.

I am saddened that someone else is experiencing the madness of what I went through, and relieved at the same time to know that I can finally shed the burden of guilt that I have been hanging onto for years now. Free from doubt that I was somehow deserving of whatever horrible punishments another tried to inflict.

You have the problem. You are the problem.

Never again will I be chained by self-doubt and insecurity.

And it bears repeating....

Don't have kids with people that are jerks. Really.