You're only a day away.

I am totally exhausted. 

Not just physically tired, but weary of mind and soul. 

No, nothing is different today than it was yesterday, but there are times I think you just feel life more.  

And today is of those days....where I am completely overwhelmed and underwhelmed simultaneously.

Overwhelmed by

constant mess

crying and whining by one kid or another all day long

my lack of motivation

financial stress

never-ending winter

my self-loathing

how much I hate our house

guilt (for how much I hate our house when I should just be grateful to have a house at all)

illness

my extreme fear of death

Underwhelmed by

marriage

my third decade

and dare I say it....

God

Don't be afraid peeps.  I'm not giving up on any of the above.  Not even close.  I'm just keeping it real.  Even in my dismal state, there was still joy today.  I laughed.  There are no nervous breakdowns on the horizon, even though my husband is sweetly concerned. 

I'm just really tired. 

Tomorrow or the next day or sometime next week or month, I will feel refreshed, optimistic and hopeful.  

You'll just have to bear with me grumbling until then.