Adrift

shhh. im here and i shouldn't be. of course i have never managed to actually stay away from anything that smacks of trouble, should now be any different? everyone is having meltdowns, breakups, kids, momentous events, and I am adrift in consistancy, balance and an alfalfa healthiness previously only imagined. the one year baby plan has gone out the window with the birth control. its too annoying once married to be bogged down by artificial population control. everyone says we should wait. Enjoy marriage, they say (as though kids ruin it all). its hard to live it up when there is a child already, as well as two dogs, to come home and feed and bathe. one more changes little.