cry me a river

Anonymous said...
You are probably thinking the exact same thing about me. Just so you know, this is all new information to me, due to self destructive curiousity and a stupid link on this damn machine. And to you? That's what you get when you publish an on line record of lies. But don't worry, I'm done. Thankfully I have been for long time now, but not with all the information. I now know both sides of the story, not just one version of it, carefully tweaked by a deceitful coward. And Sharmiisms? Are you f*$king kidding me? I am so thankful now for what I have and what I had to lose to take me there. I don't mean to be so vindictive, but lets just say my cup of melted cubes are re frozen, that stupid coldplay song is long gone out of my head and my eyes are wide open. Don't even bother trying to respond or defend you or the other. I won't return. It was just a one time only, enlightened trip down memory lane.


I love these people that wander into forbidden territory, and then wanna sue you for damage caused while they are there. Guess what? You were never invited. Not only is it enough for them to trespass where they do not belong, but then they want to tack up maps of the area on every tree, as though they actually have a clue where they stand. You dont. You dont know a stick from a fencepost or a rock from a bottlecap. Stop reading between the lines and into dates and looking into every nook and cranny for a truth you are going to invent anyway. I know you want to hang yourself on the gallows of martyrdom, and pretend like you are some innocent victim and the whole world has done you wrong... but please, have some dignity and go away. If you want the truth here it is... sometimes things just dont work out. sometimes people have good intentions that never come to fruition the way they wish. sometimes you cant forsee the future. sometimes your plans go awry. sometimes you end up hurting people inadvertantly. sometimes pain is unavoidable. sometimes you dont know the best way to handle a situation, so you just let it unfold. sometimes you make mistakes.

I am in love with a good man. We got here almost by accident. Both of us wearing war wounds and shell-shocked. We hurt people along the way, and oh did people hurt us. I am not going to apologize any longer for finding the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with. For finding the person who showed me that I was worth far more than I was settling for. For loving someone completely... flaws and all.

If that is too much for you, stay off of here, and move on with your life and accept that what obviously was not right for you, is perfect for someone else.