d day

im a little melancholy today... it has been 19 years since my dad died. It's not usually such a sad day....sometimes I don't even remember, but this year has a little extra twinge. Every year since my dad passed away, this day has been a sad one for my Grandma. Even when it didn't bother me, I always made sure to call her or go see her to give her a hug. This morning I woke up with that on my mind, and then I remembered that she is not here either. It's not like this is an avoidable part of life... but sometimes losing people really sucks. Im not going to build my dad up to some overblown fictional hero because he is here no longer, I don't want to make him out to be some giant in my mind. He was just a man, and I remember his faults as well as I do his incredible character. But I do miss him sometimes, and hope that one day I will be even close to the kind of person he was.